Originally Posted by
quitforme79 
I made the concious decision to drink yesterday. ........................ Why would I even pick it up again? Hating myself right now
It's a cycle of addiction. Understanding what happens where I have put the dot points is important. I used to return to drinking so many times once I felt reasonable again. The rationalisations during that part of the cycle have been well documented by many.
It might help to learn about AVRT and get some F2F support.