Quitforme - I'm glad you shared your feelings here. I think it lessens our anxiety when we let others in - and let them care. It's already been said, but you are not alone. We all understand how you feel - we've all been through these times.
Never give up reaching out for a better life. I drank for 30 yrs. & never imagined I could have the beautiful and free life I have today. You can do this!