Honestly, I was so used to being a screw up getting in trouble, hurting people and all that didn't phase me. Just came with the drinking.
Oddly enough what got me was when I was forced to change to timeline on facebook and I had to have a cover photo.. I was so lost in drinking I had no interests.. I didn't paticularly like really anything.. nothing really made me feel like ME. I changed it to plain black. I was nothing. I had nothing. And I needed to change.
Now I love lotsa stuff
