You can do this man. Maybe try a different meeting? I'm straight as an arrow but one of my best friends is gay... In no way should that shape who you are in your recovery. I think you might be surprised to find in the recovery world that sexual orientation has absolutely nothing to do with the bond formed between those who are struggling and want to stay clean. It's a difficult road as it is and nobody deserves to be discriminated against for any reason... I think 99.9% would agree.