no, dan, yer not the only one who thinks a drink will get rid of fear and anxiety. i did it many times. when i got into AA, i saw the truth behind just how good that didnt work. in others owords, it didnt work for crap. i was only rationalizing it.
my problems are with the person in my mirror. that is also where the solution.
so no one came and spoke to ya. did you do any footwork, like get up and talk to anyone else and/or mention what was goin on with ya?
this has been a great reminder to me of just how many people want to join me in a pity party.
IMO, it is pride, ego, and arrogance. do you want to stay that way or would you like to live with the rest of us and not be a part of the glum lot?