Someone shoot me now!!!
Well I just got home from a meeting which I didn't want to go to in the first place I made myself go and I think everyone new I was in a mood there was no room for me in the circle so I sat at the back outside the circle and had a face like a slapped ass and no one came and spoke to me. And all the way through I just didn't want to be there and hear the same stuff and hearing the same jokes and all the fake laughs at every meeting I go to which is getting annoying now. And at the end when they all stood up and held hands to say that prayer I didn't join in I just stayed at the back like I wasn't even there. I don't want to work the steps, I don't want a sponsor, I don't want to talk to people and I don't want to share me experiences, I just want to get drunk and get rid of all these feelings and live anxiety and fear free. Sorry if this sounds bad but its the way I feel. Maybe I am just an arrogant git.