Honestly I can't even tell if he went through withdrawals because it seems to me that he always feels like **** no matter what. A couple of years ago he started having stomache issues. He has gone to a couple specialists (of course never telling the docs that he is an addict) but regardless of them not yet finding a reason for his ailments, they prescribed him some meds and treated him as if he has Chrones Disease. So on a weekly basis, he goes one day constipated, the next he has the runs, the next he is throwing up (the last two weeks he has thrown up nearly every day). He either is dripping sweat or has the cold sweats. He gets up and goes to work everyday. He builds houses and has had the same job for 7 years. It's very difficult for me to tell what he's on, when, and if, because he's so damn good at it. And as I said, his symptoms (physical and emotionally) are different literally every day.
How does he pay for it? Well, he usually gives me around 1/4 or sometimes 1/2 of his paycheck to pay for bills. I never really know how much he gets paid because they pay him in cash. Occassionally he steals some of that money back from me ( a $20 here and $40 there). I stopped keeping cash on me and trusting him with money obviously. He smokes weed as well so on top of his $200 a week pot habit I guessed he's spending about $50 a day on H. Jesus. That's $550 per week on drugs. And yes, we are three months behind on rent. Cable is about to be shut off. Car insurance (we share a vehicle) is late, along with every other bill that we have. He's been spending $10-$15 on one sub. And he says that he is taking one sub per day. I'm not sure of the mg. In any case, I am in a ****** situation.
I love my son, and I do not regret having him. My ABF is a good father despite his addiction.
The more I post on here the more I feel like an idiot.
I have chosen to stay with him and ride out the storm because I feel/hope that someday this will all change.
But really, perhaps because of my choice I have no room to complain as I am doing nothing to change it. Except crossing my fingers.