I thought about getting some weed. It was a thought. That was on Friday. I work with some children who have emotional disorders and who can be quite explosive. I thought it through a bit and realized I just wanted all of my emotions to disappear for a while.
I don't need to open a can of worms, even though the way I thought about this was "just a little wouldn't hurt." Of course it will hurt me! Pandora's box would be opened and I wouldn't be the happy person I am today. It would just mess up everything I've done in the last year or so.
I'm not willing to give that up.
Stay strong, stay stopped, do something you've wanted to do for you but never found the time to do.
I'm sitting here waiting on the wind to pick up (around noon today) and no work (closed, everything is closed including all mass transit which I refer to as "My Limo Ride") and don't have to return to work until Wednesday.....
I guess I'll go put some laundry in as long as I have electricity.....
....and play some more of my computer game, we have double experience points until noon today (yes, I AM older, but that game is fun!!)
I can't drink. I can't smoke weed. It's just how it is today. And I will stay happier than I was when I was stuck on that horrible cycle of drinking and wasting my mind! You can get through this, sober!!!