I am feeling really angry at myself.
I know that the best thing for me to do is just let this go.
Her new life, her new boyfriend, none of this is any longer my concern.
Still I could not resist the temptation to look up her new boyfriend.
He is as I expected also newly recovered, living in a sober house.
On his page she posted "I love you so much." After just two weeks of dating.
Now intellectually I know that this is her disease talking.
But it still hurts.
I am powerless over her disease. But I do have power over mine.