Good to have you back. Stop hoping you will be social without the drink, just do it. I am proud that you decided to be at cause in your life over alcohol, rather than being at effect. You also have a choice not to go you know. I know that you can go to non drinking parties, just like you can go to "family" restaurants where alcohol is not served. The food is just as good you will find. Looking for the fun of drinkers and the old life really won't work. They are boring when sober. Did you ever notice the folks before that come to parties and leave early? You may be able to notice them now. They will have less than one drink or just a soft drink. Then just when to the drinkers the party starts to warm up, those folks leave! I am one of those too. Why? Because sober I can see it isn't warming up, it is getting rowdy. That is when it is fun for the drinkers but not the rest. It is boooooooring! Not me, them! That is a tough leap for some.