Thanks everyone for all the words.. I've recently ordered a few books about dealing with alcoholic parents and did look for a meeting in my area.. Next week ill attend .. I Just feel she has no one else... But it's come down to I feel I have to be ready to live with out her as she constantly talks about Leaving , killing her self, and she drives drunk when she drinks.
Twice in the last year she went to jail. She's it my only parent and my children's only grand parent on either side.
I know your all right after reading on her I have to let her live her life it's her choices and only she can make them.. It just hurts so bad to feel I have to accept she may end up in the grave if I stop what I'm doing.. But as it only gets worse and my health can't take the worrying, my marriage can't take the stess.. I guess I finally have to commit to putting my kids and family 1st and hope she one days loves me enough to put me first...
Thanks