Hi EasternMichael, based on what I read from your posts, I honestly think you should tell your loved ones. I bet they will not look down on you when you share this "secret" with them. On the contrary, they will know that it took you strength, integrity and courage to take that step. It is probably going to help you very much (not only because of their support) but the fact that you confide is going to help you. I am convinced now that Keeping the "secret" secret is what makes addiction so perverse.