Something I realized is that I should probably come out and just tell those close to me about my problem. I have a wonderful girlfriend who I love dearly and my parents are very supportive of me, as is the rest of my family. None of them suspect anything regarding my alcohol use.
It is really difficult: I've always been the one in the family to achieve great things, so something like this is extremely hard to tell those who have so much faith in me.
I don't want to ruin anything about that, but really do want to get the help needed.