To be honest,I miss it sometimes,but the part I miss I will never have again,the fun the relaxation of it were gone years ago for me.My disease tells me I can still have that but I recognize it as one of the lies it tells me today.Do I miss blacking out and waking up in jail?Do I miss the terrible mental punishment of remorse?Do I miss the awful physical and mental sickness? No..Thats what I haveto remember when I get nostalgic! 6 months is great !!