thanks for the quick reply's
ill check that link asap and hopefully see a doctor monday. im not up for rehab cos i dont thin its gotten that far due to the fact ive had the same problem that lasted a year that was more abusive and i just packed it in myself. The irony of all this is that (not that this is essential but im hoing this is the kind of forum you can just get things off your chest with people in similar situations) i broke up with my ex gf due to the mental side effects i had when coming off it the last time. and it seems im back playing with fire again because of feelings abut that very event. i cant seem to do myself any favours ever lol ive tried counseling and therapy, anti depressants the lot. nothing works so i just find myself turning to drugs when im in this state of mind.i just feel its getting to the "need to take" part rather than the "hmm i fancy getting a bit high tonite" part if you get me.
sorry to babble on and i really appreciate your welcome and reading.
Thank you