Hi Michael - welcome
I think we need to be sober a while before we can really gauge what being sober is like.
We can abuse ourselves a lot when drinking - it takes time for our minds and bodies to heal. It takes more than a few days or even a week..
It is hard to quit - and that why I'm glad you've found us.
You'll find a lot of support here
I could never look myself in the eyes in the mirror as a drinker...it feels really good to be able to do that now.
I'm making something of my life - not wasting it anymore.
That's a pretty good motivator for me right there.
D