The morning count....
I was just thinking about how when I drink (I should say when I used to drink), how I would have a morning count. I'd almost close my eyes and look in the fridge to countdown how many beers were gone or how much wine was left in the bottle (or often I'd count both). And then came more promises,like the 3am ones, about not today.. I'm taking a break. Usually that promise would be broken by 5 or 6.
I'm sure you can relate to this ridiculous count. I'd do it really quickly too, to ease the blow or the realization that I drank that much!! Sometimes I'd also have had a blackout the night before, especially when mixing beer and wine, I wouldn't remember how much I drank. Then there was also times, I'd water down the wine bottle. Add a little water to the red wine bottle so that my husband wouldn't think i had had that much to drink.
What a fool I am. And that I have thought, even earlier today (around 5), maybe I don't have as big a problem as I think I do. YES I DO.