Originally Posted by gahope88

Now what I cannot accept is acceptable behavior.

Something about this rings true for many of us.

Never in my life have I ever experienced something without conditions or manipulations. It's like I love (or like?) myself just enough to cut out the truly crazy chaos. But when it comes to allowing rational normal, even loving behavior in that I know I deserve, I can't let myself have it and enjoy it. I literally can't understand. I guess it boils down to believing that I don't deserve that type of treatment? I don't know. I just want to be healthy, happy and whole. I am willing to work for it. But is it even possible?