Thank you everyone for your support.
I tried to get an appt with my doctor but she's booked up so I went to a walk in and got a prescription for Clonidine (not the benzo, a blood pressure med that helps with withdrawal) however he only gave me SIX, 1 twice a day for three days (last time I quit I was prescribed 12 a DAY for a week) so that was discouraging.
I feel awful for what I put my family through, hence why I WANT to stop.
The hardest part is the couple hours of sleep at a time, waking up from the tiniest noise, covered in sweat. I'm restless and just SO BORED. All I can think is how fun it would be to be high. The days usually FLY by but now they feel like a lifetime each day. I also keep reading posts where people say they feel sick for WEEKS! Will I be bed ridden that long? I was hoping that the unbearable part would be over in 5-7 days. Will I just feel kinda "blah" after this week? THAT I can stand.
Thanks again.