Fitz,
The best and greatest times that I had in my life was when I gave to others. Not in a codie way. BTDT. But with an elderly gentlemen who was sick, taking him to doc appts, arranging his meds, and yelling at him all the time, for not listening to me !!!!! Also when I went to my cancer treatments, to finally take the hat off to show the new crewcut of the day, and everyone wanted to feel it to know that it would actually come back.
That's what I remember, that's what I hold dearest
What I treasure even more than that, is the time that I spent with them, and talked to them, and even held them, cried together. That's life to me in a nutshell, being there for people, and that is what you are doing.
For you, just know that you changed your world around. Take a walk on the beach, or just sit by the beach. I guess I assume you are by the beach because of your pic.