Hi las. I wanted more than anything to be a social drinker. I never intended for alcohol to take over my life the way it did. At the end of my drinking career I was practically drinking 'round the clock. That's where trying to control it took me.
The hardest thing is recognizing that fact, and giving up the idea of ever being able to use our willpower to stop at two. It never worked once for me - and I tried for years. Glad you are getting this now - you won't have to go through all the pain and anguish many of us have.