Hi Cuppycake -
thanks for pointing out "tightrope" in the Big book. I haent seen that yet...
I went through a similar period of "hearing voices" during the last month of my acvtive addiction...
I have a strong gratitude to the fellowship for sharing their experiences with the second step.
I just read this again, the other day - from p37 in the BB - More about alcoholism
"whatever the precise definition of the word may be, we call this plain insanity. How can such a lack of proportion, of the ability to think straight, be called anything else?
You may think that this is an extreme case. To us it is not far-fetched, for this kind of thinking has been charecteristic of every single one of us. We have sometimes reflected more then {jim} did on the consequences. But there was always a curious mental phenomenon that parallel with out sound reasoning there inevitably ran some insanely trivial excuse for taking the first drink, Our sound reasoning failed to hold us in check. The insane idea won out."
Today i believe, simply, that the insanity is in picking up the first drink.
The treatment, for this alcoholic, was to stop drinking... And work the steps...
If you would like to PM me, i'd be glad to share more of my experiences.
-Aaron