Was quite a lot of thoughts. A story playing out in my head...of everyone and especially myself losing faith that I can do this...
Saw myself doing what is expected of me, which is to f*** everything up. Sitting in a hotel room completely blitzed, thinking this is the only legacy I will ever have. I will forever be known as the one who couldn't hack it. Thinking I should just end it while knowing I will never have the guts to do it.
Completely insane.