You do deserve better, and you want a better future for yourself, which you also deserve, but nobody here can tell you not to love him. We love who we love, by nature or happenstance, and we can't ever let go of that. We can make sure we are a safe distance from the destruction, though. I love my sister from far away right now, that will never stop. She is also a heroin addict. I'm so sorry about all of this, but I'm glad you're finding support here.
