hi Alcofribas
I think most of us deal with guilt and shame from things we've done.
The thing is - they're done...no amount of effort can undo them.
you can bemoan that, and wring your hands...but nothing can change.
The thing is tho - all is not lost
we have today - and we can do a heck of a lot about what we do today.
I used to be the neighbourhood drunk - I wasn't homeless (not quite) but yes, I was 'that guy' - drunk, bleary eyed, unwashed, reeking of booze...
I was a mess. My life was a mess.
but...I cleaned up my act, turned my life around...and now noone remembers me as that guy - noone who matters anyway
My life is full, I'm happy and content, and I have a lot of purpose in my life. I can look at myself in the eyes in the mirror again.
Focus on today and beyond Alcofribas...you'll be glad you did
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