Originally Posted by
Dee74 
I was bored too - beyond bored really.
Due to health issues I was housebound, I had no job, very little money...I'd been a successful musician and academic...my health failed me...drinking seemed to make the unbearable less so...
The trouble was my alcoholism progressed...I knew I was wasting away...so it required more booze to numb me....my drinking soon become unbearable.
There was no escape anymore.
Nowhere left to go and no strategy available to me but to drink some more.
In the end my drinking nearly killed me.
It's not a road you want to go down uniquesituation.
You're young you're healthy and well off. You're just at the start of secret drinking etc.
I think you've got everything going for you
The only thing stopping you making changes in your life and finding that sense of purpose again...is you.
That's not 'just words' either...I've lived it.
You'll find a lot of support here.
Again, welcome
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thanks d. That was a great read. I do not one bit doubt that its me thats stopping me from finding that sense of purpose that has defined my life to date, but...
I don't know how? I'm honestly (after a ton of bad experiences the first times around) leery of going back into business in a committed way. As in, where I, me, runs the business and commits to it. Its so hard, its such a huge commitment, its so risky, its alot. I'm grateful I did it, but I honestly don't know if I can summon the energy to do it again. It isn't really much fun, in alot of ways, in some ways it is.
It IS me stopping me from finding that sense of purpose, or so I've thought, I don't know how to short circuit the me tthough.