I was bored too - beyond bored really.
Due to health issues I was housebound, I had no job, very little money...I'd been a successful musician and academic...my health failed me...drinking seemed to make the unbearable less so...
The trouble was my alcoholism progressed...I knew I was wasting away...so it required more booze to numb me....my drinking soon become unbearable.
There was no escape anymore.
Nowhere left to go and no strategy available to me but to drink some more.
In the end my drinking nearly killed me.
It's not a road you want to go down uniquesituation.
You're young you're healthy and well off. You're just at the start of secret drinking etc.
I think you've got everything going for you
The only thing stopping you making changes in your life and finding that sense of purpose again...is you.
That's not 'just words' either...I've lived it.
You'll find a lot of support here.
Again, welcome
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