Originally Posted by
Rosiepetal 
I'm at work. I am used to emailing frequently my exABF & it is taking every inch of my strength not to email him & make contact. Why am I even wanting contact? Deep breaths & fighting it.
I wanted contact because of my own codependency.
But guess what? Guess who sought me out this past Saturday, and did so whileTRASHED at 7 pm? You guessed it, the AXBF. The irony of it all, the AXBF that demanded no contact from me drove drunk to confront me about calling his parents about his alcoholism.
Guess what else? I feel worse now after contact with him. I wouldn't have believed it, but I feel worse. More questions unanswered, just as I was beginning to feel a bit better. Not great, but I was better. It was a major setback.
Big hugs to you!