For it to get better for me, I needed an extended period of abstinence Julius...
brief pockets of sobriety were undeniably good for me, but they weren't long enough for me to make the fundamental changes I needed to make in my head, my attitudes and my life in order to stay sober.
That why support was very important for me. Staying sober before the rewards come in is tough - you have to run on faith and trust that it will get better.
A lot of us find that tough going - that's why support - people to call on - is so important IMO.
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