Congratulations on your clean time. That is no small feat for a meth addict. I know because meth was my drug of choice.
You don't have to answer me, but just ask yourself, are you willing to lose your precious child due to his addictions?
I have a daughter who is now 34 and an active addict. She was three when I got involved with my EXAH (not his child) and she was eight the first time I got clean and sober. She is scarred forever.
It has been very hard to forgive myself for what she went through, but eventually I did.
I made the conscious choice to drink again and do cocaine shortly after I celebrated 4 years clean/sober. I had chosen to get involved seriously with a fellow addict in recovery.
I completely lost myself in that unhealthy relationship. Turns out he was not clean/sober for two years. He hid it well from me. I was so entangled with him that when he really spiraled, I went right down the tubes with him.
It was not worth it. I was
incredibly blessed to make it back into recovery after two months of hell.
He did not. He married another active addict that same year and has been with her until recently when he went to Vegas after a substantial inheritance. He overdosed and died in Vegas. My EXAH is also dead. We were both IV users. He went through rehab shortly before I did, and drank whiskey and shot dope the day he got out.
He died a few years ago at the tender age of 47. Complications from AIDS.
I would like to share with you at a later date about the miracles that happened in my life when I finally hit a bottom while still married to him.
I protect my recovery like the precious seed that it is in my hand. I hope you do too.
Sending you many hugs of support, hon!
