Some of the recovering addicts don't need to go back to exactly like they were before addiction. That could be what led them down that path. I can look back and see some of my son's addictive personality even before drugs began.
Wish I had been smarter. Maybe I could have at least known what was happening and been on alert. But we all think "Not my child." So maybe I don't need to go back like I was before addiction touched my life. I have grown.
Some people say they are thankful for addiction because of the growth through the process. I can't say that; but I do know that I have changed - and some of it is for the better.