It is really scary to view out of control drinking when you're sober. It brings up such bad memories "Was I that bad?!?!" it's enough to make you cringe. I shudder to think what people thought of me while drinking, and I wasn't even the type that got really out of control. The smell of the booze is so overpowering too-and you never feel like you smelled like that though of course you did. Ugh!!!