Meso, you are definitely being handed some challenges, but we all are. The urge to party doesn't go away after college, trust me! I totally wish I had gotten my act together in college when I was young and the possibilities were endless. Instead, I kept up the drinking lifestyle for decades. My life would have taken a different path entirely had I made smarter decisions way way back. I vote to stick to the path you've started. Can you go to the party and not drink? Still have some fun but remain strong?