Is something wrong with me
Ok, so kind of a literal question, but I am curious...... I walked into the aa program this time shaking in my boots. Not because I was scared of sobriety or even scared of what they would say, I was scared of what I had to lose, not what I had to gain. I am not struggling with drinking, I just am not doing it any more. Ian going to meetings, I got a sponsor and I have begun working the steps. I am happy and free. I physically and emotionally feel at peace. Today I am strong enough to say, I am not looking down the road, I am focusing on today. One day at a time has gotten me to 11 days. That's all I have to worry about. I may not be happy all the time, but who is? Not drinking is the best decision I could make for myself. I am just worried a bit, I guess because at meetings all I hear about is how in early sobriety, people walked around mad at the world, and Ian not, so am I not normal?