You are so right!! Being clean is better but getting clean sucks big time! You are on he right track but be careful not to stay on anything too long that helps with your withdrawals. My doctor gave me a Butrans .5 mcg patch to help and I researched it and got off it quickly too before I had to withdraw from that too. Just don't have the energy for that.
Everyday gets us a little closer to actually being free so don't cave, and make sure your buddy is committed like you before you hang out. Just saying.