i am amazed at how much i have bundled away inside from this relationship in such a short time. i got overwhlemed and kind of shut down - it was such an overlaod- and i couldnt really process it at the time for some reason. it is slowly coming out in splinters and shards- thanks to you all, it would have kept penetrating i guess without u guys and gals and SR. so many ,many thanks. sincerely. i can feel the healthening effects.