Sounds like you're at a turning point, Mel. You can check out detox options, rehab, AA, counseling, SMART, AVRT. I can't imagine the doctors/hospital won't help you find something ASAP given your situation. But nothing will change unless you're willing to change. I hope that your friend will understand that she WILL lose you if you don't change. So she's got options, too. Support you through your recovery process or support you through your impending liver failure.