Yep I completely agree! The thing is in the last few days I have finally "gotten" a few things:
1. The going to aa is different than joining aa.
2. That there is not going to be a magical moment where it all makes sense.
3. If I drink, I'm going to die.
4. The beast creeps up on me when I least expect it. Can't let my guard down.
5. This is MY recovery, and I am doing it for me, first and foremost. Staying sober today is priority número uno!
6. The rewards are slowly showing their pretty little faces
7. Just because I don't have a drink in my hand, doesn't mean that I am not emotional, for the good or bad. --I'm not going to be Mary poppins, just because I am not drinking! Take me for me, or don't take me at all. I'm working on me, one step at a time.