Wpainterw - your story sounds like my current situation. Just Wednesday night I had been on a binge and the second I laid down my anxiety kicked in. Constant state of worry and panic...but I really couldn't figure out what I was so panicked about. I worried myself into being physically I'll and spent three hours throwing up. I just can't do this to myself anymore. I'm so tired of blacking out and waking up to a massive headache and stomach ache. Followed by throwing up in the bathroom. My entire life is suffering and I feel as if I could lose it all very quickly.