I was a binger too. I didn't think it was a big deal only drinking 3-4 times a week with my friends. I didn't realize until I quit how BAD the alcohol was for me. ALL of my anxiety lifted when I quit. I'm a much happier, easier person to get a long with now. Life is not worth ruining it to drinking. You can be sober if you REALLY want to be, and even then it won't be easy. It's still WORTH it.