To Good to Last /Vent
I'm here to vent. S has been doing so well. He went to AA tonight and things seemed really good. He was studying for a while and his friend called. One of the conditions of him living at home is that he doesn't go to this particular friends house because it is the "drinking house". He wants to go over there really bad and I can tell he is having cravings. He is normally a sweet kid but when he gets his cravings he gets really obnoxious and no one can tell him anything. I told him I was not stopping him from going but he knows the rules. You can't go there and live here and you can't take the car out at night.
I felt myself getting into a power struggle with him and realized what I was doing. So I stood up and said
1) I will not live with an active alcoholic
2) I will have peace in my home
3) I will not have someone live here who doesn't follow the rules
then I picked up my laptop and walked into my room. I can feel the stress in my chest but I will not cave. I know that it is the cravings and I hope he realizes it.