To be honest anyone who has no knowledge of a recovery fellowships comments should all be taken with a grain of salt. Only you know what you want to do and only you know how to go about getting. Recovery is selfish, it has to be. You have to put yourself first in order to recover successfully. If that means letting go of people who aren't supporting you then that is what you have to do. You can sieve out who actually cares and who doesn't and once you know who does it makes recovering a hell of a lot easier for you.