I drank again. I know I'm powerless but this is ridiculous. I let myself down again. Ugh.
I rationalize it at the time. It's so easy to do. And it's such a complete compulsion that it goes beyond an urge. It strikes like lightning. I wish, I could convince my wife to not have it in the house. Not that it's her fault but it would definitely help if it wasn't here. Well, October 3rd is a nice day to get sober, right?