I can see and hear that he is fighting the demon within. His wanting to move out means he wants to use. His addiction is calling him.
I will not attempt to control him! I will not attempt to rescue him! Whatever happens, I am going to be OK. It's his life, his choices, his recovery or not! I have my own demons to deal with, I can only control me.
I will not let my own fears or anxiety control me, my thoughts and actions. I am letting go and letting God.
However, if he thinks he can take pills and live here (even while looking for a place) - somebody may have to bail me out of jail!
Obviously, I still have a lot of work to do on me, lol