Hi Jake,
I know the feeling. I'm at almost 4 months and I can tell you, no one told me how much worse the depression would be when I got sober. I've had some bleak days since, and I was suicidal before I quit drinking. But I've also had 2, count 'em, 2 good days so far, just in the past week, days that gave me hope that it could happen. Days where there was no special reason for me to feel good, but I had moments of, "I actually feel...ok? Happy even?" Totally foreign to me. I didn't even recognize it, I only ever got that feeling after a few drinks, which of course was temporary and fake.
Anyway...I'm there with you, most days. But some days, and hopefully more in the future, I get a glimpse of what feeling ok is like. It's out there, for you too. Good days are coming, just hang in there. I've been meditating and it's helped me immensely, ever tried it? It could really help you get through this.
Take care.