DG - sounds like you had an amazing time at the park and good conversation with your husband which is resulting in you reconnecting, establishing a dialog and rebuilding trust. How lucky are you to have this person in your life. I am also lucky and although I have many regrets, flashbacks to bad behavior and embarrassing situations of my own creating, I've decided not to punish myself. What possible good could that bring to you or your recovery?
Embrace the joy, the new found appreciation for life, love, laughter and move forward with the commitment never to return to the life that you have regrets.
tomorrow is day 49 for me, I wouldn't trade that for anything and no regret is going to make me feel bad about how great it is that I'm here.