Letting go of the self loathing and anger has been the hardest part of recovery, past the the first few months. It really can ruin an otherwise perfect day. I've made amends to people I remember doing wrong, but the resentment at myself creeps up on me and hits like hell. I do believe in a higher power enough to hand the anger over to, along with forgiving myself. Some may see it as a placebo or symbolic, but it helped originally with my intense cravings for the drink and it helps now when I get stuck in the cycle of hate.
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