My life is not on a ballance sheet i threw it away when i realized it was just a resentment list. Why me or why not me is not a useful question.
Life is a glorious experience happening right now, not tommorow or yesterday.
Letting go of the past is a healthy thing to do, i do this by looking for something to be thankful for in it or just letting it go being thankfull it's in the past .
The future ? well i know what the final destination is .. death, understanding and accepting it makes today even more special and glorious, all the more reason to live without making myself or others suffer over a past thats gone or a future that might never happen .
Bestwishes, M