well I did it, checked into the hospital. got detoxed, see my therapist on tuesday. the hard part now is dealing with the damage Ive created. My wife is so hurt she hardly talks to me, says she needs time and space but yet is out every weekend posting smiling pics on facebook like she isnt hurt at all while I sit at home and cry. Its hard to leave her alone when I miss her so much. I also have almost no support system for my emotions. I know go to AA, I will try. Thanks for everyone out there for the support you have shown me....