Of course you are all right.
I took a long shower. Now off to go visit my friends graves. Its been awhile and Ive never been there since the funerals. Kept putting it off. Maybe Ill have an epiphany there.
I wonder why people hid the truth. When I spoke at this kids funeral I wonder if Id have felt different knowing it was suicide... Probably doesnt matter.
Ive never been so angry in my life. Maybe its self pity who knows. Seems more like anger to me. I apologize for posting this here. It is disrespectful Im sure. After being disrespected this week by my wife I am venting frustration.
Trying to avoid a divorce here. Who knows.
**** happens.